Have you ever just sat in a crowded room, and felt that it was completely empty?
Me too, quite often actually.
Loneliness can be one of the worst feelings to have, its cold shadow slowly enveloping you until it’s swallowed you whole. I used to think I was quite extroverted, and loved to surround myself with lots of people. Something happened along the way though, and that attention-loving, extroverted girl met loneliness’ shadow.
It can be a difficult thing to try and explain to others who don’t experience it very often, and when they don’t understand it can only make things worse. Loneliness can really start to mess with your head, and show you kinds of pain you never thought you’d encounter. Some possible symptoms of loneliness may include: anxiety, growing quieter, feelings of abandonment, fear of judgement and hostility from peers, and the worry that no one can see you.
If you are experiencing these symptoms, you may or may not be feeling lonely. If this does apply to you, know that it is not your fault and most of your fears are probably all in your head. I know it’s hard to hear, but most of the time there is not a cure for loneliness. Some may suggest you hang out with friends, force yourself to go out, try and meet new people; but the truth is, you just need to face the loneliness.
I’ve been there. You have a handful of people you would call your closest friends, and yet they still feel so extremely distant. You feel like no one notices you, and that you are the last person on everyones mind. And the fact is, I don’t know what to tell you. Quite frankly, I’m trying to find the cure myself. It sucks. It really does. All I can tell you so far from what I’ve learned from my experiences, is that it’s okay to spend time with yourself. If at times you feel overwhelmed or mentally and physically drained from being around others; spend some time alone. Don’t be afraid to confront those feelings head on, and truly feel them. Listen to music, write down your thoughts, take a walk by yourself; have a conversation with loneliness.
I can’t promise you that this will fix everything, and make loneliness go away forever; I can promise you that the more you address those feelings, the easier it gets.
Loneliness doesn’t last forever. It comes and goes, but it’s not forever. You are not alone, you don’t go unnoticed, you are the first person on someone’s mind. Sitting in that empty room, someone will eventually sit in the chair next to you; and the room won’t be empty anymore.